Its just so funny... at times this attention seeking, attraction thing becomes like a poison which could pose as an enemy to one's own self. It just eats you up leaving you with nothing at all. So insecurity could pose as a very bad threat against your ownself. Rather its better to leave it as side...live and let live...have fun out of life coz it does no good at all. And complaining does nothing to uplift your spirits, rather just brings you rather pulls you down! Always wanting attention could also prove harmful to your health...at work too when you think you could be a major attention, it is rather good to just keep working, forget or rather fuck the world coz it really does not matter...exactly how your blog title 'coz nothing else matters' is...coz seriously by doin this, you are not only wasting your productivity at work but also hampers lot of your creative skills.... and whaddya know...the person over you are busy fuming, and screaming 'Bloody Murder' has already moved ahead....and you are still engulfed in smoke and not to forget fire...so move ahead...work how you can work the best...and if you think of an excuse..like saying I cannot work in an environment which is filled with loads of political ppl, bad and dirty minded ppl...think about the lotus which grows in a kichad (no better word! - I wonder what Mr Tushar would want to comment on this - lack of vocabulary???) anywayz...so its better to leave everything, set your heart free.. let it fly rather than holding it against everybody complaining that nothing is happening, nothing is working, etc..etc...and yea dont hold it against anybody....or dont go looking for vacant shoulders to go and put your head on to cry...remember it does not matter...does not does not matter...ppl will console you today...forget you tomm...so...always always work from your head and not heart...dont go giving your heart to ppl who listen to you show they care for you and please dont think that guys go Ga Ga over your smile, your face, body etc....plzzzz....STOP IT!!!! Does not matter...forget it...all that matters is that you smile and live life like nobody's business dont think about this and that....and most importantly do not think from your heart...it always slips, trips and falls, think from your head...Use your HEAD!!! Have fun...thats how you live life!!!